First, I want to say that I still am unable to respond to comments in the comment section. I really appreciated the comment yesterday since sometimes I wonder if my writing affects anyone. As I said before, I may switch to WordPress (although I've been putting it off because learning another system is hard for me) because commenting is much easier there than on Blogspot. I really want folks to share their stories in this section because folks with brain injuries need to talk to each other. For the time being if you want a response, feel free to contact me directly at puffer61@gmail.com If you feel comfortable leaving your email on your comment you can do that as well.
The picture on the left is why I am involved in this movement. I understand that many in the movement are not religious and that's okay. I actually like this because sometimes church folks can be a pain. (Sorry to people who go to church!) I'm drawn to this movement because there are so many things that occupiers believe which are a part of Jesus' teachings.
Many of the things I want to do with the movement really hit on my TBI weaknesses. I've made the decision to do these things and then take the consequences. Fortunately I choose things where I can handle the consequences which normally means dealing with the stress before and spending some time alone to recuperate and "rest my brain" afterwards.
I have written about this before but the occupy movement is full of challenging things for me. For example a proposal was on the Asheville City Council's agenda this past Tuesday that would no longer allow the current camp site in front of City Hall. I think we focus too much on camping to the determent of our other activities but I do believe camping serves the purpose of keeping these issues in front of people. When I walked my dog that morning, I thought of a statement I could make at the meeting.
One of the reasons I wanted to speak was because I'm middle aged and look different from the other protesters portrayed in the media. I don"t believe my differences are better in the least but I think we need to draw more folks like me. Making a statement at a meeting hits all my weaknesses however. My stress level comes into play since I can't take nearly the amount of pressure I could take before my injury. I do like to speak so I try and determine if the stress is worth it. It means taking some time afterwards to "rest my brain" and being very nervous before. I always allow much time to prepare a short speech. I never do it the day of but in this situation, if I wanted to speak, I had to prepare comments that morning.
I worked out a ride to the meeting. We were at the end of the agenda so I had to sit through the other presentations. This was a lot of stimulation for me. I made a point to sit in the front since blocking out background noise is hard. I like politics and I enjoyed watching the council members. However, I could feel my brain becoming overloaded so I put in my ear plugs to block out the sound. It felt a bit silly sitting in the third row wearing my ear plugs but I've learned to try not to care what people think.
There was a motion to send it to a committee and we were allowed to speak to this motion. It's funny but I liked what I had written. (It was a little like a short sermon) and I was disappointed to not say it especially after dealing with all my challenges. I don't think on my feet well but I decided to oppose the motion but saying part of my little speech. A television news camera man was there and a clip of my speech played on the news. Several folks who saw it and aren't involved in the movement, said they support the movement and hope it grows.
I'm glad I spoke and I may have to say the rest of my little speech in January when it comes before council again. I'll have to work on another opening because the one I had was great and I already said it. Ah well. I'll decide if speaking is worth dealing with all my brain injury challenges when we get closer to the date.
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